Manis yang Asing || The Diary of a Stranger (13)

Termenung lagi aku, dengan suhu ruangan yang membekukan gerak jari
Dengan secangkir kopi yang tiada mengenal kata manis
Layaknya aku melihat senyum manismu
Namun tiada sebanding dengan kopi yang ku minum hingga tetes terakhir

Tidak, aku sedang tidak berusaha berkata manis
Ku ingin memperhalus keadaan ini, keadaan yang asing ini
Biarkan aku menikmati kemanisan ini sejenak saja

Tahukah kamu, menjadi asing itu melelahkan?

Kopi yang pahit membuatku terjaga lebih lama
Itu pun berarti memandangimu lebih lama
Itu pun menyebabkan aku lelah

Biar manis sejenak.
Biar asing terlupakan, sejenak.

Akan datang masa, akan datang hari
Aku tak asing lagi, kita tak asing lagi

Akan datang waktu,
Kisah kita manis, dengan takaran manis yang menghapus keasingan ini.

Akan datang saatnya.

Let’s Fight The Distance

To be in a long distance relationship (LDR) is a common thing for youngster nowadays. Well, this kind of relationship is actually not only happened to couples but also for family members. In the past, we got used to be in the same area even in the house but now we have to adapt with the situation. After all, one big question for those who are in LDR is how to have a good LDR?

Here are some tips that hopefully may encourage your relationship.

1. Communicate regularly

In the era of technology, communication is easy for everyone. Make use of it. You can us

either messenger or video call application. Greet each other regularly to make your

beloved ones know that she/he is special. Although you are really busy, have some

minutes to tell him/her that you are doing well.

2. Avoid excessive communication

Though communication is important, don’t be over. You don’t really have to

communicate 12 hours a day. You also don’t need to have a looooong conversation to

compensate the time you are apart. One day, you would get tired of talking to each other

because there is nothing special on it.

3. Trust each other

Trust is a must in a relationship. How will your relationship be happy when you both

don’t trust each other? Although you can’t fully monitor his/her activities, you need to put

trust on him/her. One way to build trust is being open each other. Tell him/her the

important things that you think she/he should know.

4. Make visits

For those that are only separated by some miles, try to make visit each other. Plan your

visit so that you two will have a quality time. However, a surprise visit is recommended

because it will be memorable.

5. Give surprise

As said above, a surprise is recommended. You don’t really need much money to give

surprise. The important thing is the moment. Writing a song or poem about your

relationship is sweet. However, don’t do the same thing in sequence. Make some

improvement in every surprise.

6. Do things together

You don’t have to be physically close to do things together. Watching the same movie in

the same time may be a good choice. Doing some activities together will make you feel

close.

7. Set goal

Make a plan with each other. You have to know the estimated times you guys will be

apart and the goal of your relationship. It is a must for you to be on the same page and

have same goals with him/her. Even you are not living in the same time zone, both of you

have already known what to do with the future of your relationship.

Try these tips and have a lovely LDR!

Comfort Zone || The Diary of a Stranger (12)

Terdiam lagi aku, yang kembali ditemani rintik hujan di luar sana
Dengan kopi yang tak lagi sama, semakin pahit.
Layaknya aku yang mengenang waktu yang kembali terlewatkan.
Empat bulan ku lalui dengan kamu yang masih selalu ku pandangi,
Dengan pandangan memuja, namun...... asing

Asing, kau yang tak pernah membalas tatapanku
Asing, kau yang tetap bahagia dengan duniamu
yang mungkin tak akan pernah libatku aku sebagai salah satu pemerannya.

Terhenyak lagi aku, teringat waktu yang ku lalui.
Bukan sebagai orang yang berarti di hidupmu.
Ini menyenangkan, melihat senyummu dari kejauhan.
Ini menenangkan, mendengar samar suara tawamu.

Samar, jauh, dan... asing.
Bolehkah aku hadir di hidupmu, lagi?

Pertanyaan untuk diriku sendiri : siapkah aku?
Tidakkah aku akan menghindar darimu, seperti kala itu?

Akupun ragu, dan tak punya jawaban yang pasti.

Well, I choose to stay here. in my comfort zone. of being a stranger.

Us, Please?

Aku, not a somebody nor someone.
Aku, a small nobody with a grateful heart
Aku, an ordinary creature yet getting an amazing blessing
Aku, not a celebrity nor a princess

Kamu, somebody and someone at the same time
Kamu, a kindhearted someone
Kamu, a blessing for an ordinary creature
Kamu, well-known and famous
Kamu, a treasure for a poor ones

Aku, not a somebody nor someone
Kamu, somebody and someone
May I wish "kamu" and "aku" become kita?
Can they be us, please?

生日快乐！Happy birthday!

今天，二零一七年七月二十五号，是我第二十二的生日

今天也是我第一次我一个人过的生日.

以前，每年虽然没有什么生日庆祝活动，我妈会买一个小蛋糕然后我们一起唱生日歌和许愿 。

这个四年多了，我男朋友给我一个可爱蛋糕，一些小礼物和一个每得一天。

今年，今天，什么都没有。

家人，亲爱的男朋友都很远。

一边想哭，一边我觉得我很棒。

因为我不是小孩了，二十二岁了。那个蛋糕，礼物，不是很重要的事了。

从今年以后我是一个大人了，不可以因为每有礼物然后哭。

我要认真作我的论文，认真工作说一不会被人瞧不起。

哎呀，不管怎么说我还是想哭啊。哈哈。真好笑。

TIARA，生日快乐！不要爱哭了！你很勇敢！要开心，要加油！

my 18th birthday cake!

Today, July 25 2017 is my twenty-second birthday. Today is also my first time celebrating birthday all by myself (only). In the past, although no birthday party, my mom would buy me a small birthday cake then made a wish. For the past 4 years, my boyfriend would also give me a cute birthday cake, small present and a beautiful day together.

This year, today, none of those things are there. No cake, no presents, no family and my dear boyfriend are that faaaaraway. In one side I want to cry, yet in the other hand I think I am really great because I am not a child anymore, -22years already!- Cake and all that stuff are not important, really.

Start from this year, I will be more maturer who is not supposed to cry over a cake and presents. I need to seriously finish my final paper, do my work seriously so that people won’t look down uponn me.......

Oh, after all the encouragement, I still wanna shed my tears. Lol.

TIARA, happy birthday! Don’t be a crybaby because you are braver than yesterday. You have to be happy. Keep spirited!

Enjoy || The Diary of a Stranger (11)

Months went by and here I am sitting in the middle of the corner
In the exact same spot as the first day I saw your smiling eyes.

Months went by and here I am drinking the same cup of coffee
The same drink as the first glance I had that day

Months went by and I couldn't forget the moment you called my name
Months went by to make me realize that's really ONLY an impossible dream

Here I am, staring at your smile
enjoying the feeling of being a super stranger.

Fate decides the time we are not (strangers).

Will they?

now ... currently...
I am confused of what I am doing in my life.

I am living well but my inside thoughts are not.
All that wild thoughts came to my mind over and over.

They would leave me, I think.
They would hate me, I think.
They would blame me, I think
They don't need me, I think.
They don't love me, I think.
They..................

Would they?
Will they?

I am living in fear.
Fear of being left, fear of being hated.
I am living in tears.
I am living in darkness.
I am living with negative thoughts inside me.

Sorry, I couldn't think of anything positive.
Sorry, I couldn't let go of those wild thoughts.
Sorry.

I don't want to be like this any far.
I want to move forward.

Help me.


Sincerely,
the past