对不起 || Sorry.... || The Diary of a Stranger (10)

我的天啊！My goodness!
我听错了吗？你真的叫我吗？Did I hear it wrong? Did you really call my name?
你是真真的叫我名字吗？Did you really call my name ?
你是真真的对我笑吗？Did you really smile at me？
不可能吧....  It can't be true

我太开心了  I am too happy
开心到不能看你眼睛 Till the point I cannot look into your eyes
不行不行 It's not okay
太不可能了 It's too imposible
一定是梦，对，一定是梦 It must be a dream only, yes, it must be a dream

可是你还在我面前 But you are still in front of me
你眼睛笑 With your eyes smiling
不行  It can't be.

对不起哦 Sorry
我不会相信  I couldn't believe
对不起我跑了  Sorry, I ran
我的心还没准备好 I am not well prepared to see you
因为我习惯了只当陌生人 Because I am used to be only a stranger
对不起...

再见 || Good Bye || The Diary of a Stranger (9)

我还在， 我还是陌生人  I am here, still a stranger

你也还在，你也还是陌生人  You are also here, still a stranger, as well

每个人还在， 每个人还不在乎 Everyone's here, and still not care

我想放弃了 I want to give up

我觉得够了 I think it's enough

我不能继续这样  I cannot continue to be like this anymore

太累了， 我真的很累  too tired, I am really tired

一直看你笑得那么开心  Keep on seeing you laugh that happy

而不是我让你开心的 Sadly, it's not me making you happy

我心疼了 My heart is hurt

我不要了，我不要 I don't want, no more

因为我们永远都是陌生人 Because we will remain as stranger, forever

从今天开始，我要忘掉你了 Start from today, I want to forget you

再见。。。Good bye

再见，陌生人。。。。。Good bye, stranger

reflection

when your partner starts to ignore you
when your partner chooses to tell his/her problem to someone else rather than to you
when your partner doesn't pay attention to what you said
when your partner doesn't put you at his/her priorities anymore
when your partner doesn't tell you about his/her day anymore
when your partner starts to.....
when your partner.....
when....
when.... 


think of those situations. You will say that your partner has something wrong. But, are you really sure? You might be say that your partner has an affair or he/she doesn't love you anymore. Once again, are you sure? Can't you think of the other possibilities?

It might be YOU. yes, YOU are the problem. The problem is in yourself.
You have something wrong that made your partner does those kind of action.
It might be you, who made him/her can't feel comfortable anymore.
Maybe you don't realize that you changed.
Maybe she/he hides something that she/he won't you to know.
Maybe she/he has painful memory of past that made him/her suddenly sad.
Maybe she/he has his/her own interpersonal conflict.
Maybe she/he couldn't do everything like you expected from him/her.
Maybe she/he doesn't like some of your actions, pretends to like it, but now can stand it anymore.

There are a lot of possibilities. Think about that. Have some kind of reflection.

Yes, before judge someone is doing bad, observe yourself first.

decision

It's hard to decide. It's hard to start. It's hard to begin, again.
I know I can. I know I should. I know I must do.

decision is hard.
I need to see from every points of view.
Nothing is as simple as I imagined before

Well, life's never flat.
I might not decide now, today.
I probably will in the next 3 hours.
or, probably soon after I write this.

to begin something from the start is really hard.
is there anyone need me to continue the starting point?
I don't like to  begin again.
I hate waiting for my own decision.

I know I can. I know I have to. I know I need to.

Haruskah? || The Diary of a Stranger (8)

Bukannya ku tak ingin
Bukannya ku tak berusaha
Namun, kamu begitu bahagia
Matamu masih memancarkan kebahagiaan
Jika saat ini aku masuk ke kehidupanmu,
Akanku kamu tetap bahagia?
Akankah matamu tetap bercahaya?

Aku hanyalah seorang yang.....asing
Mungkinkah kamu bersedia membuka pintu kehidupanmu?
Orang di sekitarmu cukup bagimu

Aku hanyalah seorang yang.....asing
Tak punya hak jadi seseorang untukmu
Bukanlah siapa-siapa
Mengenalku pun tiadalah sebuah keuntungan

Maaf..aku masih ingin melihatmu tersenyum
walau hanya sebagai....
bukan siapa-siapa.
stranger

太好笑 (What a Joke) || The Diary of a Stranger (7)

过了一个礼拜 It's been a week

状况没有改变 The situation doesn't change at all

改变的是。。。The different thing is.....

我越来越需要你 I need you more and more

需要你的笑 Need your smile and laugh

需要你暖暖的眼睛 Need to see your warming eyes

不知道什么时候才有进步 Don't know when this situation will change

进步从陌生人成朋友 Change from stranger to friend

然后当好朋友 Then become a good friend

然后是最重要的人 Even be the important person that care each other

都是梦华 All are only dreams

你怎么可能认我啊 How will you recognize me?

太好笑  What a joke

当一个陌生人是真的好笑 Being a stranger is really a joke

因为，谁都不是 (not somebody) || The Diary of a Stranger (6)

今天看你不哭了 (For seeing that you're not crying anymore)

我太开心了 (I am extremely happy)

差儿点呼啸叫你 (Till the point of almost screaming)

不哭了，太好了 (Not crying anymore, that's too good)

阳光明媚 (The sun shines brightly)

全世界都让今天很完美 (The whole world seems to make my day extremely perfect)

你在我对面小看着手机 (You are across me looking at your phone)

你咖啡不黑的 (Not with your black coffee anymore)

你眼睛也很凉 (Also, your eyes are so bright)

太完美了！(What a perfect day!)

对，真是太完美 (Yup, this is too perfect)

让我发现陌生人这三个字弄坏我的性情 (Make me realize that the word "stranger" has destroyed my mood)

老天啊！(Oh, GOD!)

为什么我们是陌生人 (Why are we strangers)

太完美的日子坏了 (The day is no longer perfect)

因为，陌生人谁都不是。(Because, strangers are not even somebody)

Moving on

Last month, you came to my mind

I remembered your sweet smile

Last two weeks, your name popped in my timeline

I remembered the laughter we shared

Last week, your number’s saved in my phone, again

I remembered my tears that you wiped

Yesterday, you texted me

Tomorrow, I will miss you

Next week, I am probably loving you, AGAIN

How can I be moving on….?

Don't cry, Stranger || The Diary of a Stranger (5)

here I am sitting in front of the window

I see you

I see you out there crying

I don't know why

Are you sad? Are you crying of happiness?

I don't know why

I want to reach you

I want to ask you what happened

I want to make you smile, again

here I am sitting in front of the window

I see you

without the smile I am longing for

without the bright eyes I love staring at

I wonder if you mind I come near you

I wonder if you would be happier with me around

Stranger..

I hate this

I can't see you crying though we are strangers

 I don't want you crying

Sorry, I am just a stranger

I have to stay here as a stranger

永远的陌生人？ // Will us forever be stranger? || The Diary of a Stranger (4)

你看到我妈？Do you see me?
我在这里，你的对面  I am here, sitting across you
看我一下就可以了 Look at me for a while
好吗? Can you?
可以吗？拜托你。。 Okay? Please.......

昨天晚上我梦了你  Last night, I dreamt of you
你对我笑  You smiled at me
真真的对我笑 You really smiled at me!
因为只有我们两个人 Because there are only the two of us

真可惜，那不是真的  That's not real. What a pity!
你不能跟我的梦一样的马？Can't you be like "you" in my dream?
看我眼睛一下 Look at my eyes, even a glance

镇可惜 What a pity
那个梦不会当真的 That dream won't be real
因为我只是一个陌生人 For I am only a stranger
记得这三个字气死我了 I hate that word so much
我不要当陌生人  I don't want to be only a stranger!

不可以吗？Can't I？
我们永远只是陌生人马？ Will us forever be strangers?
是吗？Will us?

still, we are || The Diary of a Stranger (3)

Here come another sunny day
What a pity that I am still a stranger for you
Not even noticed, once

How come I still here,
staring at your smile?
Can't you feel someone's looking at you?
Can't you feel me out there?

and here I am,
another cup of hot asian dolce latte
reading unfinished stories
waiting for the story of us
which haven't even started

Can I love your existence
even though we are still stranger?
Can I?

and here I am
being sad, again
for the feeling of being stranger
yeah,..
still, we are.