How Should I Cry?

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Blank, cause I deleted what I've written previously. I am relieved by writing what I felt so I didn't have any reason to share those feelings (and how should I cry). But I like the title so I posted it. :)

Nobody said it was #easy

There are times I need nobody. There are times I need to be alone, yes, all by myself. Why? I am tired of all the fakeness, even of me being so #fake. Why can't I be myself, expressing the real me? y tho? y? y? y? ? I have to smile when I'm in the mood of shedding my tears. I have to look happy when I feel down.

#nobodysaiditwaseasy.

It's truely not easy to be part of this society. I have to mind other people's feelings when I'm actually in my weakest time. How will I survive?

This tires me.

The solution is : living a solitude life.

Prepare boxes of instant noodle, boxes of teabags and instant coffee. Prepare some books to keep you entertained. Have a strong connetion of Wi-Fi will help, as well. When bored of instant noodle, order GoFood.

Seems easy. Don't need to interact with others. While sometimes peeping at their Instagram stories to know what they are up to currently.

Not sure, tho.. That seems to help. But, no. I am still part of this cruel society. Keep being alive, dude! 加油，你一定可以的。。

Let's face the reality!